I'm just so tired...

It is exhausting just being alive.

I’m just so tired of everything. I’m so tired of this body not cooperating with anything. I’m tired of my mind constantly sabotaging me. I’m tired of the anxiety crippling me. Everything feels hard. Every little thing feels like a mountain-sized chore. When does it finally get ‘better’?

There are some days where I genuinely don’t know if I’m having an Anxiety attack or Heart failure. What am I supposed to do? I can’t always call 911 or go to the ER or UC. I just lay there and hope it passes or hope it takes me? I just don’t know.

I’m constantly fucking confused by diabetes. Like, wtf is this shit? Why do I experience Hyperglycemia AND Hypoglycemia? How the fuck is that fair? Eating low-carb and healthy doesn’t seem to be the answer either, because ALL FOOD JUST FUCKING HATES ME. Like, my body legitimately hates food. No, actually. My body hates everything.

Everything fucking sucks.