Another rainy day... — ⁺₊✦lo-fi ghost✦₊⁺

I’ve been in the east coast for about 3 months now. Honestly, I know talking about weather is a very “boring” elevator-type topic, but I really can’t get over how different the weather is here compared to Los Angeles.

I’ve always been a rain person. I love rain. I don’t love being IN rain, but I love the atmosphere it creates. I love the sounds. It’s something you don’t see a lot in Southern California, and it’s something that makes me happy. Most people in L.A. wouldn’t have the same sentiment. Most people would lose their shit if it rains one day out of the whole damn year. Here, it’s normal for it to rain randomly for an hour then get sunny and humid for the rest of the day.

Anyway, I’m enjoying the rain, not enjoying the east coast heat. I’ll probably complain every single day in the summer of it being too hot, but IMO, that’s fair. I’ve had to make a lot of adjustments coming out to the east coast, and I know this decision was for the best, but sometimes I hate how spoiled you get when you live in Cali for most of your life. Everything is just convenient back in L.A. Everything you’ll ever need is at your fingertips, and life isn’t like that anymore. It’s a shift for me. And honestly, I think it’s a good thing. Sometimes having too much convenience is a bad thing.

And it’s really not so bad. Buffalo isn’t exactly a hustling and bustling city and a lot of people here just hop the border to Toronto, if they want a real city experience. Plus, It’s a mere 2hr drive. I hate crossing the border, but I love being in Toronto.

Now that I have my weather rant out of the way, I wanted to talk about Buffalo. Yeah…

When the shooting happened, I was actually not in Buffalo. But when I found out the Tops Market, where it happened, was 5mins away from my apartment, I lost my shit. I couldn’t believe this was happening in BUFFALO. It’s a quiet small-town kind of city. Nothing really happens here. Why did this happen here? And then I read about the shooter’s motives. Absolutely not shocked.

How can this type of deeply rooted racism, still exist to this level in 2022? Nothing that is going on in our current society, says we have progressed as a country. Nothing. It’s honestly sad and sickening. And people become jaded. All of these news of shootings, diminish the humanity in us. We lose compassion. We just don’t care that much anymore. I have never heard of a shooting that had deaths in the double digits, get so thrown under the rug in such a short period of time. It’s like, a week later, and literally I don’t know anyone who talks about it. No one cares anymore. New week. New shooting. I don’t even want to talk about Uvalde.

I don’t really have the mental capacity to keep caring about every shooting that happens, but I also have a hard time sitting still and just accepting that this is our reality. Our country is complacent and people love to make excuses for the bad things that happen. I’m sick of hearing the bullshit excuses about our 2nd amendment. We can’t continue to accept the fact that 18yr olds can purchase large-capacity ammunition weapons. Toronto is a world-renown city, with plenty of rough neighborhoods, and yet, the worst news I hear about is car jackings. Not people killing 19 children with a semi-automatic rifle. Ontario is also one of THE most racially diverse places in North America. What’s the difference here? Where are their mass shootings and mass killings?

10 years ago, a gunman killed 20 children with a semi-automatic rifle. Today, nothing has changed. We still hear gun advocates tout, “guns don’t kill people, people kill people.” I’d love for those grown adults to look a child deadass in the face and explain to them that, no, that big scary gun, almost the height of a 1st grader, did not kill anyone.